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I have a difficult time thinking about the future, seeing it as something all together out of my control.
The past also gives me difficulty, it all done and untouchable but to the realm of memories.
The only thing I can think is the one I get stuck on and that living in this moment.
It's the only place I have power to control my reality.
I'm not casting the stink eye on planning, ive tried it its wonderful I should probably use some of my moments with that.
The Gods know I would likly be sitting on some south florida beach with a bottle of whiskey in my lap and a pack of smokes, neatly wrapped in a zip lock bag trying desperately but hopelessly to keep the sand out of everything I own including my ass.
Trying to worry about nothing but the rain and the cops rousting my gentle soul out of a drunken nap.
But no. I've been in fron of some computer most of the time reading, when im not reading or eating or something else.
I really dont know why im not...
Something about the rain or the prision on the highway im suppose to take to get to ohio then ky presumably looping around alabama to georgia, by way of north carolina that is. and they all got problems of their own.
I did have a test run.. Packed up my stinky moldy bag filled with my (according to my friend) stinky clothes and all my other stuff and it fit nicely. Felt good on my back.
But then one moment turned into another and cold nights and rain.
so im keeping my eyes on the stars and since its cloudy and too bright to see anything i use the computer to see em, and hopefully some alignment will prouduce a desired momentum.
its still warm alot of places yet, mid 80 even its 43 here with a light rain... not yet.
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